It will be a special and memorable experience. I will tell you something about my first love. I like a boy who sat behind me in the past but now he is not there and I got lovesick. Perhaps you have known who he is but please don't interrupt me. Please keep quiet. Thank you.
It has been about one month since he left. I have been living a hard life since he left. He was the sunshine in my life. His sense of humor and a positive attitude towards life affected me. It was he that help me out of the sorrow. As he left my happiness has been less than before. I can't get rid of his shadow. He was on my mind day and night. I always record of what happened between Him and me at that time. How happy we were!
Then I began to miss him. This feeling grew stronger and stronger. I came to realize that maybe I liked him. I began to pay attention to him. The more I observe him, the more deeply I liked him. Later, I decided to tell him what I was thinking. I imagined a variety of possible scenes when he heard that. I wondered what his reaction to my love would be. Finally I gathered all my courage to tell him my feeding by QQ. I throw all caution to the winds.
However, the results disappointed me. He told me that he didn't like me at all and he had a girlfriend. In spite of the fact that I never wanted to be his girlfriend, I was depressed. His refusal broke my daydream completely. I couldn't help but cry for several seconds.Although I was hurt, I didn't blame him because I once heard a saying that "you can take a horse to the water, but you cannot make him drink".
After that I still took notice of him. When I saw he was talking to other girls I felt uncomfortable because I was envious of them. Why on earth did I liked him? What are earth attracted me? I was absorbed in his voice and his body language when he was speaking. He was passionate enough to catch my eye.
On seeing him, I would be shy and excited. I felt that my blood was boiling and I couldn't breathe.I always glanced at him in order not to be discovered. Actually I wanted to gaze at him but I was afraid of the gossip which may influence his life. So I could not talk to others about my love openly and I had to hide this affection in order not to disturb his usual life. I did not want my love to be his burden.
So please don't play a trick on him just for fun. I don't want him to be annoyed. I expect that he doesn't mind what I'm saying now and the relationship between him and me will be recovered without embarrassment. I admire him because he's well worth. Thus the friendship between him and me is maybe proper. But I will never give up as long as he insists on his first decision.
Q&A
- How long did I cry?
- How long did I love him?
- Why did I love him?
- Who did I love？
Tuesday Dec 7, 2010
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