不知道说什么的时候就一遍一遍地强调真理

There are some dreams that I know are unattainable at present. But if I don't think about it at all, if I don't strive for it, if I don't dream about it, it will never come true. I've known more than before. I've had more experience. I've become more complex and multifaceted. So what? Did I see what I have lost? 

I've lost myself for being so addictive to so-called success. I‘ve lost myself for being always accommodating to the outside world without asking what I truly want. I've lost myself for not believing something essential, such as love, kindness and integrity.

Fortunately, at least I figured out something. Don't, don't make decisions with your ass. 说到底还是怕自己后悔呗，说到底还是不相信呗，还是不够坚定呗。害，我不逼自己了，我知道我再怎么逼自己也没用，真的。

我以前搞不懂顺其自然，命中注定和发挥主观能动性的关系，现在能弄懂一点了，habit is second nature. 脑袋里面一团浆糊，慢慢理清，慢慢输入，慢慢输出，相信习惯的力量。

相信他人，相信爱，不知道说什么的时候就一遍一遍地强调真理，一遍一遍地练习好的习惯。我也不知道，但是弄清楚了也很爽啊，所以没什么好怕的。