you raise me up

  i don't konw how to start ,also i don't want to start.i just stay .i don't konw what i think to do in my mind.just alone, pain ,sick ,terrible.i get hope because of you,then i lose it.my dream,my live,my life,my love,my younger,my future.

  不知道怎么去做就是还机器的按着之前的节奏勉强随和着。也不想怎么去开始，就这么放着，时不时还会很胡乱的幻想着，就真希望有一天能很好实现，也好像是为了让自己找到所谓的期待和意义吧。勉强的欺骗着自己。那是不敢面对罢了。