You can always try harder

It’s been a busy and interesting week. I feel like I’m promoting so many things and I think I’m lucky that I don’t get a heart attack.

After a long time of being a freelancer, I realized that I needed to take part in a company where I have to cooperate with different people whether we are sharing the same value or not. It’s such a complicated world and sometimes we just need challenge ourselves.

It was really an exciting and fresh experience in the first week. I tried so hard not to act like an idiot cause I felt good about everything and always was the optimistic one during a rough meeting.

I’ve always heard about how people get bored working for a company doing the same job everyday and don’t know how to improve and lead a better life. But I still get shocked to see personally.

There is this young boy in my department who’s only 22. He’s really a nice gentlemen and says yes to everybody. He works really hard and afraid to ask for help and gets timid when encounters conflicts. The boss really likes him actually because every meeting I can see the she’s always trying to encourage him to get out of the comfort zone. She really cares, not only the work getting done but also the staffs’improvement. Well, that’s how you do being a good leader anyway.

Anyway, I know what I’m doing here. I got to know the people in the company within the shortest time and figured out the basic logic of the work here. Now that I’m one of the key members in the group and I’ve learned a lot from this whole thing, which is really interesting. It feels like looking down from the sky and see how things change and how people interact.

I’ve been pushing myself learning new knowledge and communicating with different types of people. I wasn’t really a person who likes social intercourse. So you see how strict I am to myself. Just when I started to call myself a learner, a challenge loving person. Something happened, and it made me realized that we can always try harder and get better.

Here’s the thing.  Last time I ask my new friend who’s from South Africa, to give me a little funny story about him, so I can add it into my article. He was so nice that he gave me a whole article. And then I found out I couldn’t find the one I need. But I decided to let it go instead of asking him for more information.

It was when he kept asking me and said “what do you want , tell me and I can write out for you, just help me to help you”that I realized I was too lazy to communicate with him. I assumed that he was just another stupid Laowai. And that gave me a shock. I was so embarrassed that I still have the assumption after so much practice of No Judging.

So, during the next days, I tried my best to communicate with him and get to know him as a friend not a foreigner.

Sometimes we are just too lazy to get to know people by heart. And in this situation, I used language as an excuse and he bought it. But I know from the bottom of my heart that’s not the case at all.

I always like the words from my teacher “Before you judge me, try hard to love me first”. Well, hope I can behave as this saying as time goes by.

Always aiming for a better myself.