Confused

With moonlight sprinkled on my face，  I lose my sleeping again. I've thought a lot of stuffs, which always confuses me and never gets away from me.

          I have a crush on a boy for a period of time, knowing we are same as each other. However, there is something wrong between us. Three months ago, I told him that I had fallen in love with him. What confused me was his denying to me. He said he had have a girlfriend, actully, not me.  I don't  know how I suffered the next months with my broken heart.

            Now, it's been a long time since that, however, I'm still not recovering. I thought I have totally recovered. Every time I hear everything about him, I can't help getting  sad.

I fail to see through his heart, to know what he is thinking, and to know why he did that, to know whether I should stick it out to  care about him.

          The stuffs about affection are    always dramatic and ridiculous.