你二十多岁，没有工作，没有存款，没有感情，宅在家里，游手好闲，不修边幅，无所事事，饭来张口，打打游戏，浑浑噩噩。表面上平如静水，实则内心焦躁不安。
In your twenties, you have no job, no deposit, no emotion, you live at home, you are idle, you are slovenly, you have nothing to do, you eat, you play games, you are ignorant. On the surface, it's like still water, but on the inside, it's restless.
你口口声声地说要独立，要去大城市，可是你真的有那个能力吗？你若真心敢去，父母拦得住你吗？
You say you want to be independent and go to big cities, but do you really have that ability? If you really dare to go, can your parents stop you?
怕是真的没有勇气，不然你也不会坐在这里敲下这些文字，心里五味杂陈。
I'm afraid you don't have courage, or you won't sit here and knock down these words.
我大概就是那种才华还不足以支撑梦想的人吧。总是在幻想成功，却不看看现在的自己，每天只进步了多少。
I'm probably the kind of person whose talent is not enough to support my dream. Always in fantasy success, but do not look at their own now, only how much progress every day.
几天前，看到朋友发微博，说期待四年后的自己，我也好期待四年后的人生，是不是还像现在这样碌碌无为。
A few days ago, I saw my friend tweet, saying that I'm looking forward to myself in four years, and I'm also looking forward to my life in four years, whether I'm still as busy as I am now.
现阶段的所有烦恼，归结到底都是我考研失败，可是我也好想考上呀，我怎么就这么不争气呢。
At this stage, all the troubles come down to my failure in postgraduate entrance examination, but I also want to pass the examination. Why am I so frustrated.
忘不了等待成绩的那些日子，偶尔会做噩梦，晚上失眠，成绩出来那天，坐立难安。之前和男朋友一起估分数，虽然没有十足的把握，但是感觉应该差不多，怎么说也是又复习了一年…那天下午五点，输完身份证号码，我就连忙把手机放下了，紧张的不敢看，做好了心理建设之后，看到了分数，心凉了半截。353，只进步了8分，照去年的国家线还差了两分，果然，北京是没那么容易考的。
I can't forget the days when I waited for my grades. I have nightmares occasionally. I can't sleep at night. It's hard to sit and rest on the day when my grades come out. Before and boyfriend together estimate score, although do not have full assurance, but the feeling should be almost, how to say is also reviewed for another year At five o'clock that afternoon, after inputting the ID card number, I quickly put down my mobile phone. I was too nervous to see it. After doing a good job of psychological construction, I saw the score, and my heart was half cold. 353, only 8 points better. According to last year's national line, it's still two points worse. Sure enough, Beijing is not so easy to test.
可能是我盲目的择校，以及盲目的自信，让自己最后输的很惨。可是…突然想为自己辩解，却不知道该说些什么。那些所谓的坚持就是胜利，学到最后就是成功这类的都是屁话，考试就是考试，结果无非就是两种，考上，或者没考上。难道有谁辛辛苦苦复习是为了获得一次成长的过程吗，在这样的结果面前强调我曾经多努力，多辛苦，一点意义都没有。
Maybe it was my blind choice of school and blind confidence that made me lose miserably in the end. But I suddenly want to explain myself, but I don't know what to say. Those so-called insistence is victory, and those who learn that success is finally success are bullshit. Examinations are examinations, and the results are nothing more than two. They are either passed or failed. Is there anyone who studies hard to get a growing process? In front of such a result, it is meaningless to emphasize that I have worked hard and worked hard.
可这就是考研啊，就是竞争，这个结果，我放不下…
But this is the postgraduate entrance examination. It's competition. I can't let go of this result
我会继续考，因为这是我未来的基础，是我在这个年纪，给自己做出的选择。
I will continue to take the test, because it is the foundation of my future and the choice I make for myself at this age.
也有人说考研不是唯一的出路，也许我就是有了这样的想法，才总觉得自己有后路，才没有那么拼尽全力的学习。这个世界就是这样吧，人太容易被自己感动，可是总有一些人，他们比你优秀，更比你努力，最后只能被他们比下去。大家都在努力向前走，想超过别人哪是那么容易的事，这个时代最不缺的，就是拼命改变自己命运的人。
Some people also say that postgraduate entrance examination is not the only way out. Maybe I just have such an idea, and I always feel that I have a way to go, so I don't have to work hard to learn. This is the way the world is. People are too easily moved by themselves, but there are always some people who are better than you and work harder than you. Finally, they can only be compared. Everyone is trying to move forward. It's so easy to surpass others. The most important thing in this era is the people who desperately change their own destiny.
所以，今天在这里写下这篇日记，我希望你，能够更快的成为一个有能力的人。
So, write down this diary here today. I hope you can become a capable person faster.
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