Awesome experience

Though more half of years stayed to be afaid, I realized too much worries makes more regrets. Certainly i made less mistakes in my work and spoke less my own opinions, it seems i am temporary safe. But i also lost the opportunity of taking challenges for earning more trust.

To be brave or keep slient，which one suits my current situation. I am not sure, because i am not sure how what i know can help team or project. So the first thing that i should do is to understand what our project exactly needs. Maybe i can't do anything to help team become better, maybe i can.

The time left for me is not enough, not only know what team need, but also learn new software technology. However i still want to spend time enjoying life for example cooking, playing with my boy, considering parents' health, financial knowledge.

That is the problem i have less time but want to do more things. Maybe i should give up something so that i can focus on important work tasks.

That can help me live through financial difficulties at present. And also be worthy of the people who give me this good opportunity.

Writing happiness is like this. When words become sentences,  and sentences become Paragraph, less worries, clearer road under foot.

The experience is awesome.

放下被人关注的欲望，

随着一个个文字被点摁出，

仿佛带我走入一个幽静的无人之地，

拥挤颠簸又漫漫旅途的公交车上，

也似那柔软轻盈的云端，

跟随指尖的跳动，

人好似也在翩翩起舞。

放下求认可的我执，

反而收获真正的喜悦