confession

Sometimes i was wondering, if i lost the ability to be in commitment? Since i entered to the university, i found it hard to study anything quietly and did most things casually. I wanted to change this situation, but i didn't know where to start. This brought me so many troubles. I can admit that my delay to go overseas  and the terrible gpa partially effected by this. Times by times i want change myself, it likes a trap, no way to escape.

Now, several days to be in my first job, i know probably there is not so much time for me to study compared to the time in school. I have paid the price for my personality, i promise to be better. I want get a 100+ score in toefl and acquire a N1 in japanese test. Within the recent year, i have to make some different to stop the normalization of my life. I want to be one in the elites for myself, my family, my friends, my future love.