第132天 悔（Regret）

这是记录小确幸事件的第132天。

2021/07/25 悔

实不相瞒，在我平淡无奇的生活中寻找小确幸事件实在困难，但如果不去做这件事，生活不就更没有意义了嘛。

我一如既往坐在电脑前写日记，也习惯性地追悔庸庸碌碌的前半生，甚至责备自己的懒惰和愚蠢。曾有多少逆耳忠言被我当作耳旁风；如果没有一意孤行，我就不会亲自把生活搅得水深火热。

前半生里，我看到的我，就像别人眼里的我，总有些优柔寡断，多愁善感和冷漠无情。更糟糕的是，我对待生活的态度令我一事无成甚至被辞退过。曾经，我那么容易沉迷于没有实际意义的爱好里，甚至交往三观完全不合的男朋友，把快乐彻底埋葬。

如今的我在更多的时间里会往好的方面想，还会通过学习和运动重塑积极的生活秩序，我也相信一切都会变好。

*英文和中文不对应。英文日记作为练习，不能保证语法完全合规，用词绝对合理。

25/07/2021 Regret

To be frank, it is too hard for me to write down or even think of any little happiness in my such dull and boring life. But if I don't record this kind of small blessing, life would be like a dry, arid desert.

Now I sit at my computer, deep in thought as ever, regretting for all the matters that regret will not mend in the first half of my life. I suppose it has been all my fault that I did not follow anyone's advice and as a result pushed myself into hot water.

I used to be somewhat wishy-washy, sensitive, and lukewarm; even worse, I never finished anything and was once fired from a job. I was always taking fancies to things that would never made senses to me. Furthermore, I had been going out with boys that did not in the least speak the same language with me, which was absolutely, totally, and utterly ruining my life.

But now I try to see the bright side of life and console myself by exercising, reading, and learning. As one well-known saying goes, don't be sad and don't be angry if life deceives you. Fortunately, the failure thing is not a matter of life and death, and I am sure everything will work out fine.