I have to face my life

I don’t know how to face my life.In fact, I still miss him,my ex-boyfriend,I was hoping to marry him before,but things went to the opposite way.we were been together around eight months,after we were been together for two months,our relationship turned down cause I didn’t happy with two things of he did.

I bothered him over three months after he broke up me.i couldn’t accept he took women back to the apartment.i asked him stop,but he didn’t,that made me crazy.i hate him,he hurt me deeply.