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hello my fellow members，this is my first  speech. In this speech, I will tell one story about myself and one story about my elder daughter.

When I was a little girl, I had a little uncle who was nice and liked playing with me every time when we visited his home. He was 6-years older than me at that time, (he is still 6-years older than me now) but at that time, it means he was a cool big child and a very important friend to me.

One day, I got a little jelly from somewhere. I took it as a treasure and told mom I am going to give it to little uncle as a present. "OK." said mom.

After that, when we were visiting them again, my mom mentioned that I had a present to give, but Suddenly I changed my mind. Suddenly I didn't think it's a good gift for an important person any more. It's too cheap and small. I felt shamed to show it up. So I just held that poor little jelly in my hands and stood there, said nothing, until we left. I can't remember the details, expect the terrible feeling.

Many years later, I got into middle school, then the university, after that I joined Ericsson. My age increased a lot, but that quiet and unconfident little girl is still living deeply in my heart, never grow up. And I already gave up to change her any more after many failed attempts.

Four years ago, my elder daughter was born. Since that day, I became a mom. As a middle-aged married woman who took the children as the center of the whole life, my biggest wish already become expecting my daughters grow up to be much cooler persons than myself.

So as well as many parents, I registered the dance class for my elder daughter at her 3-years-old. She loves it becoz she always imagine herself to be a beautiful princess in the pink dress. Every time, At the end of the class, the teacher would invite parents into classroom and do some activities and summary together.

One day, the activity was a little bit different than usual. Parent needed to hold child's hands, jumped from one ring to another with two feet closed, and do an ending pose after jumping.

Child/parent pair would take turns to come on the stage. In the waiting time, I had a little discussion with my daughter in advance about making an elephant pose. I had seen that she can do it very well at home. She agreed. However, when we held each other's hands, did all the jumps, and came to the final spot. I did the elephant pose, she just stood there, did nothing. I can see the hesitation and panic on her face.

I realized that very probably my daughter is another copy of me. But If I can't help myself, how come I can help her?

So I decided to give myself one more chance. Thanks to my daughters, they have brought me a lot of changes that I didn't even notice. I am not the most important person in my life anymore. As a new "me", I'm more brave to seek for the point of view that how I feel about the world, instead of always feeling nervous about how the world will judge me. They give me the enormous courage to do the things I have never imagined I can do, for example, standing here to deliver this speech.

Tomorrow is the four-years-old birthday of my elder daughter. This speech would be the brand new starting point for us to grow up together.