stress into the specification

For the very first time I realized that I actually hadn't reached the deep within me to find out myself.Here's the question.

What am I really pursuing now?

I once asked myself a couple of times but didn't get an elaborate answer.The first thing came into my mind is exactly the status of being a amazing girl——which means I have been brilliant enough to make geart scores in school,I have got the ability to support myself,etc. All I really wanna do is just confined in a small scope,which is the final goal——to get money. I asked my heart and then it gave some sort of answers like that. Maybe thousands of people nowadays look like that they are ashamed of talking about money,to be honest,in their deep mind,they are obsessed with the substance because it's power,it's status and reputation in the world. But there are another kind people,they make money just wanting to lead a better life.For example, plenty of young people are sticking to strive for a delicate life.For girls,they want to buy more cosmetics to makeup,they want to be gorgeous.For boys,they wanna play computer games or some other games to get rid of the irritation outside.They want to hit the gym to get a perfect figure.

Sometimes we just deal with the disturbing and questioning so that we got lost in ourselves.We became easy satisfaction for some entertainment and  got easy distressed by others success.We just couldn't cope with the things right before us due to the mixed fake news and messages.For instance,I have seen amounts of exaggerating titles and articles in our community.Some of these authors just want to get "click" and get the dividends from this app. When in reality,many people were affected by this misunderstanding in that the titles are in conflict with what the contents really are.I am not trying to shit on someone or something,instead I just want to make it clear for myself.If I have ever had a clear perception of this stuff,I might not being so anxious very often.

I checked out a video on Bilibili which means a lot to me when it comes to this big topic of life. I used not to understand the original of anxiety.Now I figure out how to melt it and get over it—— to be oriented in the small steps and specifications whenever you are exposed to a big question.

Make it clear what you want to reach.What should we do,how to verify it.Just roll into the small one and add it to get the big one.