What is this life about?

What is this life about? Today I ask myself at home . for the reason that tomorrow I will face the

Fact that the lunar new year vocation is end.I have to go to work if though is reluctant.

Life seems to be full of challenges and struggles for me in last year when I changed job.

Overtly from mentally, I faced the three life questions: who am I ?

What am I here for? Where should I go in the next year? In remote future?

It comes to me to say, just to experience,see the diversity world,meet some interesting things,’

To have through the senses and mind, to be creative and imaginative.

But if I am confused that if though I tasted so many things, they are just illusion.

Even though I appreciate the wonderfulness,such as listened some nice music, taste some

glorious food. But in the end ,nothing is last ,just empty ,everything just temporary!

The worst truth is we will all die in someday.

That makes me feel fear ,and have nothing to do ,just feel depressed.

When I looked back in the past 30years ,I see for much of my life,

I have been picking up some much burdens,and a little tired of being experienced .

And I can’t control the mind ,taste this,see this ,feel this ,you will regret if you miss them.

So many chaos there !

In the end ,you will come to see ,you have enough of transient experience , just this .

How disappoint is it ?so as the question as I mentioned at first”what it is all about?”

How to transcend it?

Does the “God”or ”Bodhisattva”exist?

Is he sitting in the high sky ,can he see what I do this moment?

God exists in every molecule,you can see and feel anytime ,anywhere.

In every particle,in the visible and the indivisible.

If there is conservation of energy ,how can I  keep it  and find the one I cannot live without.

Ok ,let me talk about the inner heart .and the way to be infinite in the only finite.

There is always a sound talk to you ,

Just sit in silence,pick up no thought or any intention.

My friend advice me after 3hours ,I need to alarm myself to clear myself.

Think about the past,present,future.

Simply just be empty and present.

There will be always a voice around me ,go to work ,do this thing,

But it is the really thing you wanna do ?

This is not good ,this is evil ,look at this people ,you should learn from him,

He is the sample of model.

It just happens inside your heart ,

Deep silence of say ,thanks ,I am here .

The word says ,I welcome you ,absorb me .

Remember the words it not I am trying so hard ,

But cultivate yourself and one day you will be maturity.