Yesterday I didn't get a good sleeping even though I went to bed earlier than before. I tried to relax myself, but it didn't work effectively. I know that I was affected by external things, and my internal world did not have the ability to get rid of that interference, so my mind was still fluctuant, but it was not severe under my control. Today after breakfast I went out to deal with the problem which I had said yesterday, everything was going well, and It was easier than expected. So before noon, I had done that, and I got another victory.
I know that I am a thoughtful person, so I do things very carefully. I always have a plan A and plan B even plan C before actions. No matter what happens, it is usually within my expectations, so I rarely feel surperised for what has happened. Is precisely because of this, I always think all kinds of possible dangers which will happen and the method hwo to solve them, so I am more likely to be anxious. Enev though I have the awareness to control it, but I still don't have the ability to control it effectively.
Yoga especially meditation let me know enjoying the present, being aware of changes in the mind. So I am better than before in controlling myself. Even though I can not control myself completely, I have the consciousness to calm down my internal world. Just like now, it is 23:32, and I told myself: stop writting, it is time to go to sleep.
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