“妈妈的淘宝”

在图书馆里刷微博拖延着不像继续读文献前，突然看到这张图片，眼泪就开始往外掉。

这样的内容好像总将人从眼前的immediacy中抽离出来，看到in some way这些都没有那么重要，还有另外的 看待生活的方式。

突然想起小时侯，好多晚上（写着写着我就容易get too emotional)爸妈如果回来晚了，我就会开始害怕whether something bad happened to them. It's weird how some memories unthought of for years just suddenly come into your mind.

I feel so vulnerable thinking about her; I can't help but picture her as vulnerable; I often did this in high school every weekend when I was about to leave for school. (btw I guess I didn't expect her to remember how much I suffered those days.) So I want her to be well, of course I do. 

先离开的人从来不会感到多大的痛苦，永远都是留下的人。

oh shit tears are about to come out again.

too sentimental. too emotional.