Been

Done my first half marathon

I planned half marathon before but I never managed to finish it because I am too lazy and I always make a dicison all the time but never managed to finish it for most of them, sometimes I just forget about it but most of the time i just find excuse. It is too easy to find a excuses and it seems like that's all coded to my personality. too many dreams but too little to make things come true.

I never thought it was a problem util I get a real setback recently and I get sometime to reflect my entire life, to trying find out why I am alway not satisfy with myself but always not find a way to change it. I realise that if I want to be someone who is confident, hardcore, opinitive person who can incouraging people not because of her passion but also because of her expertis. One thing i should conquer is change too quickly.

Every change is not easy, be aware it, make dicision and take action. I think I can start from some physical changes like finish something I wish to do but never managed to, I registed marathon and start training. I do skip some training section but I kept for most of the time.

One day before the event, the weather report shows it would be rain, I do feel sick and dizzy for all week, I thought seriously about quit as it would be easier for me to do it next time when everything is perfect. but I told myself just go, no matter what, at least I can finish the race and it already an achievement for me.

During the run, I felt good at the very beginning but I was tired after server up and down from the hill. I saw 2:10 racer at first half, so I thought I would follow 2:10 racer at the first half, if I get tired at the second half, I could still managed to get 2:20 maybe. things getting more interesting as when came to second half, I run ahead of 2:10 racer instead of getting more distance with them. 8k left. 5 k left. more close the end line, I saw more people start to walk. then I made another decision is that I never walk one step for this time. util 2 km, I felt really tired and start to counting the electric piles as a distance counts. finally I went to the end, one thing that I never thought about is that I finish the whole seciont within 2:06 mins, and my pace was 6:02 min/kilometer. It was amazing that I never managed to get 6:02 pace during 10k, not mention 21k. and the second best pace was 6:30 for most of the time.

It was uplifting and I have a lot of fun while pain and endure

Thoughts

1. keep smiling even during a hard time.

During the whole seciont of half marathon, when i felt tired, I tell myself kept smile and it worked really well as when I smile, I felt I get more energy back and the hard things are not that hard anymore.

2. Never give up and never find an excuse for myself.