欲理解自我，需要高度的智慧、非常的观照与警觉；在不懈的观照中，智慧就不会悄然滑走。我非常热切，想化解我执心；我认定，我能够化解我执。请耐心倾听，当我说“我渴望化解执心”并为此亦步亦趋时，这本身就是我执心，这样，我执心反而被强化了。
那么，如何才能不经验我执心？我们知道，在创造中绝不存在自我的经验，创造即是我执心的泯化，因为创造并非发于理智，并非头脑的造作，并非自我投射，而是对一切旧有经验的突破。心，能否回归宁静，进入认知止息的状态？此时，经验心止息，我执心泯化，心就进入创意待发的状态。不知道我有没有讲清楚？
……问题是当下，此心安否？任何的心动，不论正动或反动，皆是既有经验在发动，事实上在强化我执心。当此际，心能不能止息认知？唯有心归于完全的宁静，认知才能止息，但这并不是我执心所刻意经验的宁静，因为那种宁静反而在强化我执心。
——克里希那穆提《生命书：365静心日课》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）
译按：Self，自我、我执，就是对自我旧经验的执着。理解自我，就是看透自己的执着心。末句中“我执心所刻意经验的宁静”，凡旨在制伏内心妄念、获得静心的修为，不论打坐持咒诵念等，皆是执着，克氏著作中对此从无妥协让步。
Beyond All Experiencing
Understanding of the self requires a great deal of intelligence, a great deal of watchfulness, alertness, watching ceaselessly, so that it does not slip away. I, who am very earnest, want to dissolve the self. When I say that, I know it is possible to dissolve the self. Please be patient. The moment I say “I want to dissolve this,” and in the process I follow for the dissolution of that, there is the experiencing of the self; and so, the self is strengthened.
So, how is it possible for the self not to experience? One can see that creation is not at all the experience of the self. Creation is when the self is not there, because creation is not intellectual, is not of the mind, is not self-projected, is something beyond all experiencing, as we know it. Is it possible for the mind to be quite still, in a state of nonrecognition, which is, non-experiencing, to be in a state in which creation can take place—which means, when the self is not there, when the self is absent? Am I making myself clear or not?
… The problem is this, is it not? Any movement of the mind, positive or negative, is an experience which actually strengthens the “me.” Is it possible for the mind not to recognize? That can only take place when there is complete silence, but not the silence which is an experience of the self and which therefore strengthens the self.
FEBRUARY 5
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