I made a big decision this week -- I decided to quit alcohol and smoking.

Why? 

Because it is not good for health. Having excessive alcohol causes many health problems and make people lazy. Study shows that it can be a cause of cancer. So is smoking. My father was diagnosed with cancel about 9 years ago when I was in the third year of college. I was shocked when I heard the news. Before then I felt that cancer was far from my family. I couldn't take it and I cried. My older brother just came out of college and got his job. My family was a typical one in countryside in Hunan province. My father went to Guangdong to earn money for my family when I was a child. The whole family counted on him. The reason for his cancer was considered to be too much pressure to support our family and too much smoking. I have started drinking and smoking for two years, not much but for considerable amount. I am weak in self-control and I have got colleagues who love drinking and smoking. Being around them makes me started to do them. I got stomachache and backache in Wednesday and they made think about drinking and smoking. I knew I had to stop them, or my life would be a mess which I couldn't imagine.

Also I lost a lot of time drinking with colleagues after work. I should have used the time for learning. My English is still poor and I am not competent in my current job. Also I want to learn Python, HTML&CSS. I need to learn how to become a good investor on stock market. The time for them is already limited but I have been spending so much on meaningless gathering for drinking. I am so stupid. How I want to slap myself in the face.

From now I really need to concentrate on the development of myself. 

To myself

Dec. 2nd, 2018