永不退转

活在遗憾的世界

守着一颗圆满的心

记住美好的誓愿

做一个永远

永远喜乐的人

曾经的我们 一贫如洗

可如今的我们

又何必如此惊慌焦虑

Well when you least expect it,

在你最猝不及防之时,

Nature has cunning ways of finding our weakest spots,

上天就狡诈地找到了我们最脆弱的地方。

Just remember. I'm here.

你只要记住，我在这里。

Right now you might not want to feel anything.

现在你可能不想去感受什么。

maybe you'll never want to feel anything.

或许你从来不希望去感受什么。

maybe it's not to me you want to speak about these things.

或许，你不愿意向我倾吐这些事情，但是……

But uh, feel something… you obviously did.

请你感受你所感受的。

Look. You have a beautiful friendship.

你有过一段很美好的友谊。

And I envy you.

我很羡慕你。

In my place, most parents would hope the whole thing goes away.

在我看来，多数父母会希望这一切烟消云散。

pray that their son lands on their feets, but ......

祈祷他们的孩子就此放手，但是……

I am not such a parent.

我不是这样的父母。

We rebound so much of ourselves to be cure of things faster,

为了快速愈合，我们从自己身上剥夺了太多东西,

that we go bankrupt by the age of 30.

以致在三十岁时，你就已经一无所有

And the less to offer, each time we start someone new.

每开始一段新的感情，我们能给予的便更少。

But to make yourself feel nothing, so as not to feel anything….

但是为了让自己不要有感觉而不去感觉。

What a waste!

多么浪费！

It'll clear the air,

I may have come close.

我也许曾经接近。

But I was never have you too have.

但我从未拥有过你所拥有的。

Something always held me back,

总有些什么在阻挠我，

Or stood in the way.

或者挡在我前面。

How you live your life is your business.

如何过你的一生是你的事情。

Just remember.

只要记住。

our heart and our bodies are only given to us once,

上天赐予我们的心灵和身体只有一次。

And before you know it,

在你领悟之前，

your heart's worn out.

你的心已经疲惫不堪。

And as for your body,

至于你的身体,

there comes a point,

总有一天，

when no one looks at it,

没人愿意再看它一眼。

Much less come near it.

没人愿意再看它一眼。

Right now.

现在。

There's sorrow, pain.

你充满了悲伤、痛苦。

Don't kill it.

别让这些痛苦消失。

and with  the joy ，you felt.

也别丧失你感受到的快乐。

从《永不退转》这首歌和《call me by your name》的电影中摘了两段话出来，正好对应此时此刻我的心情。
我想给我的2019年想一个关键词叫做“生发”。
我不喜欢现在的痛苦，但是如果错过了这份痛我想会留有一份遗憾的。