I lived a mediocre life for many years. Mediocre was my mindset.
It drove me to hide in my bedroom with the blinds down and sit in darkness. My life was dark. It felt cold. I watched everybody else in my life succeed at a business or a career or starting a family. Not me though, I was a joke.
It seemed I could never catch a break. A place like the internet was never going to accept me. I would spend hours telling myself how stupid I was. I’d eat fried food every day, numb the pain with a bottle of Johnny Walker, and scold strangers in the Youtube comments for fun. Life wasn’t mediocre. Life sucked, big time.
Settling for this miserable life was my default decision. I was unintentional about every decision no matter how small it was. Going for a run seemed too small, so I never did it.
It took me many years to understand that a simple act like going for a run can lead to outcomes you could never predict. What changes your life is not something huge — generally, it’s something small. Something so small you don’t ever imagine it could have an impact in your life.
A mediocre life is created for you when you don’t think about the small stuff.
The small stuff leads to the big stuff. I wrote one article back on the internet in 2014 and it changed everything. It didn’t feel like that at the time. I hit publish and assumed failure and disappointment.
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