二十岁的第54天，最后一堂夏老师的英语课

2018年6月15日，星期六，二十岁的第54天，最后一堂夏老师的英语课。

人生的长链，无论是金铸的，还是铁打的，无论是荆棘编成的，还是鲜花穿起来的，都是自己在特别的某一天动手去制作了第一环，否则你也不会过上这样的一生。——查尔斯·狄更斯

或许今天是这特别的一天，或许第一次上lulu姐课的那天才是，无论如何，夏老师用她的睿智、用她对美的感知与传达，触动我到心底层。

最后一次听她读诗，Charlie Chaplin的As I began to love myself，她期望着我们能成为这样的人吧，跟随着“初心”，爱自己。我最爱的是“wisdom of heart”那句，“As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection WISDOM OF THE HEART.“ 我常常自认悲观，也自以为通透，揣测人性不端，这可句话让我觉得，我的思想应该有温度，有温度的思想才会有分量。

还记得lulu姐带我们去欣赏建筑文化的岁月变迁、去了解希腊神话故事中的起伏转折，还有一点点分析形形色色的逻辑谬误，当然还有她在讲述这些的过程中，闪烁的光彩、坚定目光和曼妙微笑。

lulu姐带我们阅读了许多诗篇，分析了不少大家智慧，试图去影响我们内心对幸福、对宽容、对逻辑、对美、对种种事物的理解，她也身体力行，告诉我们该以怎样的态度面对生活的纷纷扰扰，当我们安慰照顾生病的儿子同时又忙于工作时的她时，她的回应是“不辛苦，常态而已，所以大家珍惜啊，你们现在已是最好的时光”。像大炮前段时间跟我说的，“人应该一边奔跑一边找寻自己真正想要的”。积极面对生活纷扰，然后发现自己热爱的事物。要在感知和适应这个世界的过程中感受到快乐，在对自然和艺术的体察中获得幸福。

衷心希望夏老师一切都好！

AS I BEGAN TO LOVE MYSELF

CHARLIE CHAPLIN ON HIS 70TH BIRTHDAY

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.Today, I know, this is AUTHENTICITY.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it RESPECT.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it MATURITY.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm. Today I call it SELF-CONFIDENCE.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it SIMPLICITY.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is LOVE OF ONESELF.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is MODESTY.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it FULFILLMENT.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection WISDOM OF THE HEART.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS “LIFE“!