Over the last week, I had a lesson about uncertainty. I have been obsessed with house decorating and couldn't follow my usual sechedule to finish my study task, which troubles me a lot. On the surface, it's a matter of time management. But this idea is changed after the lesson of flow and uncertainty from Wu Zhihong.
Why do I have to stick to the rigid timetable with full realizaiton that it's impossible to complete them? What am I really pursuing? The feeling of control.
It has to be admitted that life is changeable, cannot be predicted and taken in control totally. That's what I fear. Why do you fear? I don't know. Fear seizes me. The only way to get out of its grip is let it follow. Let fear follow. To feel the fear soar in the vein, have it follow through your body. Then, it get down. You see how it happens, develops and disappears. You accept it which open your eyes to the more important thing.
There is a line from Princess's Diary, which fit in here"Courage is not the absence of fear, bur rather the judgment that something else is more important". Am I courageous? Well, I choose to be.
That's what I do in the next three days. I only focus one important thing and let others slide.When I stay in the new house, I surf the internet to browse items for family and enjoy it. I wouldn't blame myself for not doing more because I know I've completed the most important thing. Furthermore, I believe myself to get perfect preparation. I believe my strength to face the challenge of test, I believe my inner growth to creat a wonderful life in this impefect world.
I like myself.
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