Some Feelings 18

please let me share an interesting thing happened this noon. 

i usually go downstairs to have lunch by the cargo elevator other than the passenger elevator, because the former is nearer to me. the elevator, as everyone knows, is in front of the fire door which should be closed all the time. 

i walked into the lift following a girl wearing a mask. i know she is my colleague but i don't know who she is. because although our company is not so big, we generally hardly communicate with each other face to face but just online. also since the COVID-19 broke out three years ago, everyone should wear the mask as a consequence of which we know little about each other. even if we can recognize others, we can't call out their names. 

i have a direct and strong feeling that the mask covers a lot of beauty but at the same time shows a lot of beauty, because everyone's eyes are extremely charming and pretty. 

my colleague has a perfect figure dressing a black long down coat. when we got to the first floor, i went ahead, opened the fire door and held it to let her go across the door. when she came out, i loose my hand and closed the door. i think i am always a gentle man. 

but actually the following situation depressed me. 

when i opened the door, another girl was standing outside with a take-out food in this hands. obviously she could not spare her hand to open the door. i believed that both i and my colleague saw the girl. i also believed that what she thought was different from mine. 

because when i was gonna close the door and then leave, i saw my colleague still holding the door for the girl. i must say she is more gentle than me. she taught me a lesson. 

it is a long journey for me to become a nicer and nicer guy.