Experience about Reverse Culture

I stayed with my cousin for few days. And when my parents picked me up, she told my mom that my English was poor and I wasn’t confident enough to talk. I didn’t even speak much English how could she know that my English was poor??? Well my vocabulary is poor that’s true. But I’m trying my best to learn them. I don’t understand why some people are being so ridiculous and mean. I didn’t even do anything but they just kept telling others something fake. I don’t know what’s wrong with this world. I had stayed in the US for one year and I really loved there because people were nice to me. There was full of loving people. I thought I was an exchange student so I should tell my Chinese friends and families about my life in America. I was trying to tell them that the US has lots of good things that we should learn. And they just thought I didn’t love my country& I thought China is bad.??? I don’t understand. It’s like when I say I love Japan, and lots of people blame me like I don’t love my country. ??? RIDICULOUS. I said America was good but I did not say China was not good; I said I loved Japan but I’ve never said I don’t love my country. And when I came back, lots of my neighbors saw me and the first thing they told me was I became fat. I was like own your business.  ??? I thought I was not even close to fat. When I went to temple, my mom wanted me to eat in the temple, but the food was not fresh and good. I tried a little bit and I said I didn’t like it. A stranger next to be blamed me like Buddha gave you food but you complained, you didn’t respect Buddha. ??? I just ignored her. How could this become a reason to blame me? What if Buddha didn’t like that food either? And my uncle had stomachache after he ate the food there. When I came back from the USA , lots of Chinese people told me not to marry to Americans, even strangers told me like that. That is racistI have my own future but who are you? Who gives you power to control my own life? What’s wrong with those people? What’s wrong with me? I don’t understand.

Experience about Reverse Culture Shocks. 6.25.2018