I Hate Myself for Loving You

歌曲随想

1988年的旧歌，原唱Joan Jett。第一次听到这歌曲的旋律是2000年读大学的时候。一个室友带了一张刘德华的专辑CD回来。那还是CD机+低音炮的时候。就在那CD里收录了这首歌的中文版《我恨我痴心》。现在看来，这翻译很到位。
再听到这首歌的时候，已经是2019，近20年后。电影“头号玩家”的配乐。前奏吉他一响起就是那种金属的味道。所以最近又重温了这首英文歌。

生词

clown [klaʊn] n. 小丑；丑角；

歌词

Midnight getting uptight where are you
午夜时分，气氛正好，你在哪里？
You said you'd meet me, now it's quarter to two
你说会来找我，但此时此刻已经一点四十五分
I know I'm hanging but I'm still wanting you
我明白自己犹豫不决，但我依然需要你
Hey Jack it's a fact they're talking in town
嘿，杰克，人们真的议论纷纷
I turn my back and you're messing around
我置若罔闻，你却越闹越大
I'm not really jealous don't like looking like a clown
我不是真的吃醋，只是不想被人当小丑看待
I think of you every night and day
我日日夜夜都想着你
You took my heart then you took my pride away
你带走了我的心，然后又夺走了我的尊严
I hate myself for loving you
我恨自己爱上了你
Can't break free from the things that you do
无法从你的所作所为中泰然自若
I wanna walk but I run back to you
我曾经离开，却又回到你身边
That's why I hate myself for loving you
那就是我恨自己爱上了你的原因
Daylight spent the night without you
白天了，我没有你而过了一晚
But I've been dreaming about the loving you do
但我一直梦想着你的爱
I won't be as angry about the hell you put me through
你对我那么糟，但我已经没那么生气了
Hey man bet you can treat me right
嗨，老兄，我打赌你会对我好
You just don't know what you was missing last night
你只是不清楚昨晚错过了什么
I wanna see your face and say forget it just from spite
我想看看你，告诉你忘掉这些不愉快