To Jul.29, 2023

  Jul.29th, it's one day before my birthday. It is a raining Saturday. 

  I met a friend, we had delicious lunch and coffee. Last year, we celebrated my birthday one week ahead. This year, we celebrate birthday one day ahead. I like Hangzhou food and was surprised by  colorful mixture of beans and beef. It's innovative that put beans and beef together to make more than 3 kinds of colors. We also enjoyed rice drinking. It is sweet with very less alcohol inside. I first time had rice drink when I joined an event in Japan. I acted as foreigner volunteer to give guild to tourist. Because of my hard working, I was treated a cup of rice drinking freely. We went to Starbucks finally and both sat near to window, so we can have a quiet space to drinking coffee and talk friendly. 

  It was a very peaceful and honest talk for me. Most times, I was afraid of opening my mind. Honestly, it is very hard for both us. Balance is really challenging. We may know mind-set of each other, sometimes, we may even feel very clearly, however, it is not allowed to speak into words. I often feel suffering when I think about it. Therefore, I choose to pretend that I don't care. The honest person is myself. Indeed, I feel much sad and lonely. One of my most like dramas is 起风了。I like watching sky and wish myself is a free bird. Things always have opposite sides, one side is happy, one side is sad. I want to be happy for sure, however, things will go to another way if we stick to being happy.  Suddenly, it becomes a philosophy topic.. I don't have answers at current page. 

  I used to think about life. I have opportunities to meet patients during my job. I often feel crying when I see the blood of patients. The blood is very pale, looks very disappointing. I will get much courage and wish could live the moment. 

It's a great thing to meet each other and be good friend. 

To current, we are so proud of both handling well. 

To future, should be expected, about situations and solutions.

lovely food together 小熊呆呆