Thedeadcannotreturn

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2018/11/17        周六        阴转下雨大风

不再期待也不再等你回头

Today, I had a long chat with a very special person who has not contacted for a long time.

I don't know if you have ever had a close friend who was so good that you could talk on the phone until the wee hours of the morning without being sleepy.

I am the kind of person that is special heavy feeling, in some aspect of family affection lack, let me to the friendship especially value, as long as the friend needs me to be able to do my best, I can promise oneself to be bullied, but who dare to bully my friend, that I with him dead fight bottom.............................................................

Remember, near the third day of junior high school examination, a good friend of mine suddenly said that I felt dizzy, very uncomfortable, and looked very miserable. My first instinct was to take my money and take her to the hospital. Although I was very resistant to the hospital, I did not hesitate to go. Before, I was sick, dead and unwilling to go to the hospital. After that, I could not believe that the person who stayed in the hospital with friends for several days was myself.

I think most of you probably guessed who I was talking to today.

Right! Is that I once very good friend, that I can for her to stay in the hospital for a few days, that once in the third day of the night insomnia and I will chat until the morning of sleepy people........... But why not talk about everything before, now can be so long without contact, a connection gives people such a sense of inexplicable distance?

Time is really a melting pot, which can make a close friend so distant and can make the diamond in the past so flat.

I think she and I are like mirrors. Before it gets knocked down, it merges. But after being hit hard, they can only be separated into separate individuals. And our friendship is the broken glass.

I told her that I missed all the memories we had together, but she told me in an understatement, "don't read the past, don't fear the future"! Really is a good "do not read past" ah! But, I am not her, I can't do! I can't change my terrible nostalgia.

Although I know very clearly, the past, again how to miss all can not help, can only become the past tense. But, I just can't get past this kan! Why is that? Can she be so "hard-hearted"? Can participate in the real and good memories of such a hard-hearted put down, can really rest assured?

I know for the "feelings", who first seriously lost. But I don't want to let down everyone I met in my youth, I have to take responsibility for every feeling. So I live a very real, very heavy, often hurt by the "body and skin." But I will still pick myself up and greet each friendship with my best attitude.

Mother and sister to me the most evaluation is: stupid! Simpleton! I agree with what they said, but I can't change it. It's easy for me to believe what people say, my heart is too soft, and it's hard to see someone not doing well, even if that person is the one who hurt me. After jumping over the same pit, I knew it was a pit, but I still chose to believe it and jump into the fire pit again.

I know I'm stupid, but I can't help myself. Just like I was very good to her, no matter who we did wrong, it was me who "gave up arms" every time. I was considerate to her in everything, and finally I was severely hurt by her, and she said: you have changed, not you I knew before! During that time, she gave me a cold shoulder. She told the people we just met that I was not good, that I was not good, that she alienated them from me, and that she was indifferent to the bruises and bruises of my late return

Clearly saw through a person, but why to see their bad time, the heart is still so sad, want to give them care and warmth, even want to go back to the time we started?

I think, I am really hopeless! Those who have deeply hurt me can start to live a happy life. Why do I still want to return to the good memories of the past? Why don't I let myself off the hook? Must let oneself live so afflictive, so tired ah?

EASON's "best loser" sings:

Being pushed along with the flow of life;

Next year strange, is yesterday's most intimate so-and-so.

"And very easy, very difficult at first" do not cling to the past and memory.

You're so good, you deserve better. Let it pass!

Live in the present, don't think of the past, don't fear the future! You're great. Come on! You can do it!