“我如何才能摆脱那些邪恶而顽固的念头？”当你作如是想时，除了此念，除了邪恶，除了顽固的彼念，还另有一个思维心吗？请观察自心。我们会说：“有一个‘我’在说话……这是一个顽固的念头……这是邪恶的……必须控制这个念头……必须保持这个念头……”我们对此都已熟知。那个“我”，那个思维心、评判心，那个评判、审查的内在人格，与这些念头有分别吗？那个“我”，与念头有分别吗？与嫉妒有分别吗？与邪恶有分别吗？那个自称与邪恶水火不容的“我”，一直在锲而不舍地想克服“我”，抛弃“我”，变成另一个面目。所以，你内心一直在抗争，一直想消灭那些念头，一直想甩弃顽固妄念。
就在这个思维过程中，我们在“强力而为”，你明白吗？然后，你又造作出自我克制、管控念头等问题——内心有个“我”，想控制恶念，消灭嫉妒，告别暴力，修成这样，变作那样。所以，当内心有了个“我”，然后念头丛生并努力控制，你就进入了努力强为的内耗状态，这是我们日常生活中真实常态。
——克里希那穆提《生命书：365静心日课》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）
译按：此篇还是在讲“能所”，即思维心与妄念的二元对立。简而言之，内心有恶念，又有一个“我”要消灭恶念，实际上二者就是同一个人格，即偏执心，如同人的左右手，并无分别与对立。只是因为我们认为二者有分别，水火不容，陷入了左手与右手的掰腕子，所以才无休止地抗争、内耗。
比如，你认同（identify with）了右手，就会认为左手是异己，丑陋且邪恶，于是你就自动陷入了“右手消灭左手，左手顽固反击”的无谓内耗。其实人所有的内心纠结、折磨、斗争，均如此。“我”与恶念亦如右手左手，实为一体不二，看清了这一点，就会豁然开朗，内耗终结，能所双泯。
英文文字很浅显，中译加了一些诠释词，文字本身也不复杂，但文字背后的道理却的确不易解，需机缘契合。
Thinking Begets Effort
“How can I remain free from evil thoughts, evil and wayward thoughts?” Is there the thinker, the one apart from thought, apart from the evil, wayward thoughts? Please watch your own mind. We say, “There is the I, the me that says, This is a wayward thought,’ ‘This is bad,’ I must control this thought,’ ‘I must keep to this thought.’” That is what we know. Is the one, the I, the thinker, the judger, the one that judges, the censor, different from all this? Is the I different from thought, different from envy, different from evil? The I which says that it is different from this evil is everlastingly trying to overcome me, trying to push me away, trying to become something. So you have this struggle, the effort to put away thoughts, not to be wayward.
We have, in the very process of thinking, created this problem of effort. Do you follow? Then you give birth to discipline, controlling thought—the I controlling the thought which is not good, the I who is trying to become nonenvious, nonviolent, to be this and to be that. So you have brought into being the very process of effort when there is the I and the thing that it is controlling. That is the actual fact of our everyday existence.
FEBRUARY 28
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