I'm on some kind of duty today and I can't go any further place except the building where I live. The fucking principle made by my superior is so ridiculous and we don't even know we should follow it. But an order is an order.
So I hang out till midnight having some fun so I could sleep in the daylight, what may probably wouldn't happen because my biological clock isn't work that way. Especially I'm in kind of Insomnia these months.
Maybe I will get up at 8:00 and have breakfast. Then I will try to study English for a while. After such a long career in my field. I have totally gotten used to play within certain areas. That's the rules of my game that I have to cope with.
It's 2:00 and I just watched the film avenger 4, to be serious, I fall asleep three times during that time. What a irronic thing I'm doing. Still out at midnight and sleepy. I'm not the young boy again who chase girls all the time. I have tried to done something more meaningful. Although I can't describe with more details, quotes from万维刚, maybe I'm looking for something bigger than myself. we are always on the way leads us to the unknown destination. Life is never about certainty which we are so desperate for.
I feel lonely , maybe I have said so many times that I can't even count. The truth is I miss my daughters and wife.
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