被迫着重新开始，是生活厚爱你的方式

SOMETIMES IT IS HARD TO START ANEW, BUT I AM GLAD THAT I AM FORCED TO DO SO

I have pressed the wrong button only to find all the script I have kept in the phone notebook was gone. It seems that half of my heart collapses the minute I realize the inspiration taken down as record, the vivid phrase I have put into sentence at the enlightened moment was no longer with me.

被迫着重新开始，是生活厚爱你的方式

Damn it. I am forced to start from zero after all these precious records have been removed as if I hadn't done anything before. I couldn't help mourning the things lost and the time wasted together with the dropping of what I have been accumulating for a long period. It was frustration, anger, regret, helplessness and then peace and an empty mind.

I guess it is a brand new start for me today since I lost what's kept in track in my notebook. These are my sentences ready for articles for the following days update in JIANSHU, which is the partial reflection of some sudden idea and unexpected inspiration, and it was quite a thrill and high spirit the moment I mark them down, but now they are gone with the wind the way they come into my mind, abrupt and totally beyond prediction.

To be honest, I have been tried all these days, the passing away of my beloved pet, the more and more difficult tasks pilling up without any sign of solution or settlement, the computer keeping shutting down due to something wrong in the system, numerous things compulsory but unimportant getting in my way to deal with something more urgent and significant, etc. I am glad that this unexpected deleting record by mistake brings my uneasy and restless life into an abrupt stop. Things slow down all of a sudden, and I see that I could take no more if I keep going on with everything thrown by life or any other toward me filling my hands, stuck in my brain, suffocated in my mind.

被迫着重新开始，是生活厚爱你的方式

It is right to let something of the heavy burden off your shoulder, to shut yourself out from the chaos which keeps raging on, to empty your mind a little bit for a later refilling. I am just a shut down system with a blue screen, waiting to be restarted. I am glad that it happens to me and force me to stop half my way to an exhausted ending.

Admittedly, I am numb these days, and an taking away of something abruptly does bring a sense of sharp pain inside me. Pain makes my mind sober. And my soul calms down a little bit.

This might be the best reaction when you lost something. Just take it as a way to lead you out of what you have been through for a long time, and a chance for you to realize something treasured is still within your reach if you learn to let go and move on.

I note down something still in my memory in a new established document. Compared with that one mistakenly canceled, it is limited but brief and concise. And I know it is a turning point for new start. I won't have the gut to delete something I attach importance like this. I wonder what I would do and how I would feel if I haven't make this move when I am absent minded.

被迫着重新开始，是生活厚爱你的方式

Be grateful to anything seemingly bad happened to you, and you may find the meaning of it soon.