Life is struggle

I always think why I'm standing on this stage? Perhaps because I promised in our WeChat group. Actually, I have started to regret on the time when I sent out the message to make a speech.

Who don't like the comfortable status? But the progress of speech preparation is really tough.

At the beginning of this week. I tried several times to prepare the speech, but failed. Compared with other things , speech preparation needs much time to be considered again and again, I would rather choosing simple things to do. So it was always delayed. Until Thursday evening, I answered Wisdom's call, and started to become anxious.

The next day, I got up very early, and attempt to write my speech draft from 6 o'clock. Sometimes, touch head, sometimes, pick nose, grab my ears. Sometimes, I even stand up. But I found I have written nothing after past one hour. Then I went out to try to get some inspiration. I walked on the playground , one lap, two laps...I was not sure how many laps I have walked, I only felt there were thousands of ants running in my brain.

Meanwhile, at this time, my most close friend came to say: "hey, it's too hard, quit it!" "I have promised" "it doesn't matter, u can say u have urgent thing, they can understand" "actually, I promised to me" "take it easy, not most of things can be decided by u"  u must have guessed my close friend is not the other, it's another stone in my mind. Each time when I faced this kind of situation, he would come to persuade me to chose a more comfortable ways.

I remembered all of speeches that I made for the past 3 months, no one speech preparation was easy. For each one, I needed struggle for a long time, from walking out the comfortable zone to facing a tough thinking process. Meanwhile, I had to conquer myself in my mind. Luckily, I have finished 7 speeches until now, and haven't  given up any time. I have learned many skills for speech making and reflected myself to improve again and again. I became more and more confident. Last week, I didn't  think out what I could speak when the meeting had started, but I still finished the speech and even extended.

I think maybe this is really life. Life never means comfort, life is struggle. Walk out from the comfortable zone, and enjoy the struggle process, u can have chance to progress. Progress is the meaning of life.