A letter to whom I loved（一封情书）

I love you

you who have attracted me three years

It's the youth's prickling ever since

It's idiotic and prudent,but it's also innocent

I have experienced the heartbreaking procession which a desire grew from a subconscious will to a clear intention,becoming more and more sure to grab hold of it

It's partly because I'm not dependent enough and I cannot control freely the circumstances which occurred in my life

There was once a story which told about how a tragedy happened

A young beggar found himself so poor and so need of money that he decided to work hard to get it

Indeed,the hard working,along with the supreme fortune,he finally managed to be one of the richest merchants on the land he lived on

Soon,countless money and exceeding quantity of resources came furiously from everywhere

But he already acquired a bunch of assets that he got tired of it and felt not require it any more

So he finally miserably died because of the illness both physical and psychological,with the most part of money left untouched

I'm so afraid that when I'm somehow seemingly enlightened than before,I will recall self-mockingly and complement sarcastically in an overripe and sophisticated orthodoxy to holdback the once-appeared uncontrollably developed desire of my stupid,stupid love, that is,I already forgot what my original intention is

Just like the homopolar field magnets need to surmount great repulsive force to stay together,we also have to overcome millions of obstacles,I desperately want to be better,so we can stay for each other,whenever,wherever

So I regurgitate it constantly and mechanically in order not to forget it or change it or simply let it fade away gradually

Only I know,the moods' unripe but they're painstakingly sentimental

They're childish but genuinely unforgettable

They're dramatically theatrical but they contained so much astringent bittersweet that they're still well worth recollecting

I know,as long as I wipe these memoirs clean and put it decorously in the safest and deepest part of my heart,it will shine secretly but brightly just like the first time you looked into my eyes,it will parachute down with simple happiness when I need just like the last time I jumped into your arms

I lift up my eyes,reached out my hands into the sky,feeling the warmth on your fingertips and the hearty smile on your cheeks

The morning dew moist my heart ,the autumn breathes soften my soul

Yet I see you stepping closer,your eyes shining like the brightly-lit sunlight ,a sudden pang arise

Really do not believe that life would be like people off guard,but as if enchanted,you walked straight into my life,to some degree,you changed it everlastingly

My heart,it flipped since then.

“愿你生命中有足够多的云翳，来造就一个美丽的黄昏。”                  --冰心

A letter to whom I loved（一封情书）

我不知道，分道扬镳之后，你将会否日晚倦梳头，但我，恐怕，双溪的舴艋舟也载不动我的恁许多愁。

不过，我一定会趁我们在时光的罅隙间即将流逝的美好一一拾回，制成清香秾馨的茶汤，在时光静好的日子里咽下，品一品那些忘情的苦涩，与甜蜜的快乐。

我在回忆里细细寻找，忽然听到了我初恋时的心跳，看到了你上扬的嘴角，那些啊，是我灵魂深处星辉斑斓的美好。

诶，我发现，我好像深爱着你。嗯，我一直都会，因为我知道------

没有爱的心，生命再不闪烁

Dedicated to my first lover.