活出不一样的痛苦其实不容易

不推荐有正事干的人看这本1000多页的小说，何况是充满明喻隐喻嬉笑怒骂现实和臆想的种种痛苦描写。作者曾是哲学系的天才，却以文名遗世。我在很长的低谷时间 password 用的是 whatswater, 因为每天可以提醒一下自己，在看了他的演说之后。（本来考虑 youtube 国内看不到，改加个优酷视频链接，发现广告有90秒，直接脑瘫 。。。如果 David 来中国生活过，很可能不会自杀了。）

推荐电影 The End of the Tour 吧，能看这两个人演作家一直说一直说的，请继续。（我看了两遍）

Wallace 笑称 VR 成为现实之日他要逃离地球，那些掌握了取悦你 neurological response 的技术，当你和脑中幻影愉情，他们并不爱你只是要你的钱。（你的钱跟你的命是有转换公式的）

“为什么受到极好教育的人，有良好工作的人，貌似幸福的人，常常感受到孤独？”

“太过美国式的生活就是去得到X，得到Y，得到Z，然后以为会心安。”

“... maybe it's my biggest asset as a writer, that basically I'm just like everybody else.” （衷心致敬）

Wallace 虽然被尊为美国当代文坛的代表人物，读者很小众，很多能从他作品受益的人根本不会拿起他的书。感谢这部纪念他的电影，让我们和他的影子短暂相处。孤独的人对爱要求没有那么高，也就是与人分享生活，感受快乐和 。。。困惑。

他的死，我认为可能是西医界滥用抗忧郁药物的又一悲剧。如果中医能够再主流一些！

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"Joke aside, I was always amazed by you, intense and long-lasting wouldn't go together, as common sense. And I fantasized what if I met you in school, but there was a big chance we end up where we are now, so I'd rather have the you now for the future me who would need more love to shine through loneliness. Very logical, ain't I?"

"Amazed by me? What does that mean? You are easily amazed. Intense and long lasting doesn't go together...  Hmm.... In what context r u referring?"

"Feelings."

"You don't want to know me twenty years ago. I was a mess. The current me is way better, like an aged wine that almost turn into vinegar.  Me twenty years ago was like vegetable juice, healthy with extremely disagreeable taste."

"I liked and still like veggie juice. :) I want to see you smile and be happy, not just relieved of stress."

"I can be happy only during and immediately after pressure release. :) After that, there isn't sufficient amount of fun air in me to sustain happiness. Am I weird as a human being?"

“親愛的，活出不一样的痛苦其实不容易。”