Going through life, one wouldn't always be going upward in every single perspective, I suppose, even if you simply limit the possibility to career development.
There are people who ask for nothing but stability, while maintaining the current payback, probably with a sound balance of work and life; There are also people who would always strive for higher, better place without any holding back. (Let's just rule out those who slack off while trying to keep their job)
As you grow older and wiser, you start to realize you wouldn't always be the center of the universe in any single dimension. You'll just have to learn to accept and embrace the reality, one way or another, sooner or later. You also will learn the brutal fact that people change merely because you are standing at a different position, that sometimes your effort or attitude doesn't matter at all.
As you are facing these changes, there's no other way than convincing yourself in a good plausible way that you find it all sufferable. I strongly believe in human nature to survive--even that means your brain's tricking yourself. I also firmly believe it's absolutely normal to experience lack of sense of worth, and that there's an end to it.
It would hurt occasionally when someone reminds you how low you've put yourself here and now. It would hurt even more when you are painfully going down the memory lane where things were so different. It would hurt so much so that your heart would stop beating when you resonate with someone who's also going through the same period.
Having been so used to pushing myself up to limit, maybe, just maybe I'm entering into a phase where it's ok to just do my job well, without any concern of how others might perceive it, without any consideration of where this might lead. You do your share of work, you get your paycheck, you leave the workplace. That's it.
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