5-20

今天是5月20号，我想为我一直坚持爱我的考拉松鼠写一写我的心里话。

I imagined a million times of what my lover will be like. I assumed a million situations of how my lover and I will interact with each other. But you, my dunky ass baby, give me the experience that I never expected to experience before. Two days ago, I almost break us apart. But when I realized how stupid or selfish I was, I had a voice in my heart that I want to write out my love to you. Tonight is such a perfect timing which I didn't plan out and just got the idea of writing my heart out by now.

You are as naive as a freshly born baby in the purest good way that makes your love for me so real, pure, and unique as one of a kind.

You are as kind as a Buddha which I told my mom long time ago and it's how I really felt about you. I still feel the same baby that your kindness makes me sometimes even do believe that I am that perfect as you always think I am.

You are the most honest person I've ever seen that you always try your best to help me find the truth even though it is such a hard thing for you.

You are as persistent as the moon circling around the earth that no matter how hard I pushed you away or hurt your feelings, you never change your love for me.

You are also the dumbest people like a puppy in such cute and adorable but sometimes piss-me-off-so-much type of way that it seems like all you know is loving me, nothing else you know too much about. What's funny is that I got mad at you because of this fact since you knowing nothing else made me feel like that you don't really love me or care about me.

I always accuse you for not seeing the world enough, but actually I was trapped in my own world too. I thought the way my loving people around me do things for me is the way that my true love would do to me too. Now that I realize it's such a narrow way to look at love.

I told you that we have a journey to walk on together as one with the goal, but I in turn am the one who lost the belief. I kept thinking to myself if you were my true love, you would have done things in the right way to me since the very very beginning ( lol how stupid is that). So I kept pushing you over and over again and hurt you so intensely too, but now you are the one who hold on to that belief everly strong and kept fighting for me in a way that I never imagined or dared to expect before.

Your love for me is something that I never be able to imagine baby.

You might seem as vulnerable as a kid emotionally, but actually you are so strong in terms of your love baebae. And it's all because you have such a real and pure heart baby.

I love you.

I treasure you.

I worship our love.

I live on our journey.

I won't ever step away and leave you alone.

So much that I haven't written out yet, but I'd like to foster them in my heart for a little longer.

Your beautiful sweet sexy gentle kind strong magical lovely gorgeous incredible stunning smart heavenly amazing magnificent loveeeeeeeeee.