Let me bring only one complaint before you: I suffer from scorn, my own scorn. But my soul said to me, "Do you think little of yourself?" I do not believe so. My soul answered, "Then listen, do you think little of me? Do you still not know that you are not writing a book to feed your vanity, but that you are speaking with me? How can you suffer from scorn if you address me with those words that I give you? Do you know, then, who I am? Have you grasped me, defined me, and made me into a dead formula? Have you measured the depths of my chasms, and explored all the ways down which I am yet going to lead you? Scorn cannot challenge you if you are not vain to the marrow of your bones." Your truth is hard. I want to lay down my vanity before you, since it blinds me. See, that is why I also believed my hands were empty when I came to you today. I did not consider that it is you who fills empty hands if only they want to stretch out, yet they do not want to. I did not know that I am your vessel, empty without you but brimming over with you.
让我对你讲讲我唯一的抱怨：我遭受到蔑视，来自我自己的蔑视。但是我的灵魂对我说：“你看不起自己吗？”我觉得没有。我的灵魂回答说：“那么，听着，你小看我吗？难道你仍然不知道，你写这本书不是为了满足自己的虚荣心，而是为了和我说话？如果你使用我给你的言辞对我讲话，又怎么会受到蔑视？那么，你可知道我是谁？你抓住我、定义我并把我变成一个死板的公式了吗？你测量过我这深谷的深度吗？探索过我将要引领你去走的所有道路吗？如果你的虚荣心不深入骨髓，蔑视根本无法挑战你。”你的真理很残酷，我想在你的面前放下我的虚荣心，因为它将我蒙蔽。你看，这就是为什么当我今天来到你的面前时，我依然相信自已还是两手空空。我并不认为只要他们伸出手来，你会将他们空空的双手装满，何况他们未必愿意那样做。我不知道我是你的容器，没有你，就会空无一物；有了你，便能充满溢出。
This was my twenty fifth night in the desert. This is how long it took my soul to awaken from a shadowy being to her own life, until she could approach me as a free standing being separate from me. And I received hard but salutary words from her. I needed that taking in hand, since I could not overcome the scorn within me.
这是我在沙漠中的第25个夜晚，我的灵魂用了这么长的时间才从自己生命的阴影中苏醒，成为一个独立于我的个体，来到我的面前。随后，我听到她严厉而有益的话语。我把这些话谨记在心，因为我无法战胜内心的蔑视。（我们对于自己的蔑视，源于不满足，源于为了名利，去做很多勉强的事而有实实在在感到不屑，源于自己内心对于善恶美丑的判断和欲望炽盛之间的矛盾。所以，我们对于灵魂是有所求的，所以我们创造了又一个神。希望能够得到指导，希望能够有所获得，希望能够有一个似乎更高的，可以信赖的主体，能够代我们做出决定，卸下责任，卸下负担。但一切必要你自己承担，必要由你完成自己的救赎。）
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