I Want To Know What Love Is

海明威写过最短的小说是：For Sale: Baby Shoes, Never Worn. 六个单词，用一种短小却让人惊讶的方式就能写出一出人生的悲剧。

这种生命中能承受之痛并不是每一个人最后都能全身而退。在2014年的情人节，毕业于QUT的导演特别建立了一个名为wewantyourlove的网站。他们收到的800多个关于爱的自白中，有85%是浪漫的爱情，但也有40%是心碎的爱情，有人写了10页，却只写了一个人名。

上周四晚，我赶的Brisbane Festival第一场，就是由这800多爱情自白编排出来的一出小剧场：《I want to know what love is》。（以下略有剧透）

当灯光全部暗下后，慌乱的脚步声，东西掉落声，我还在黑暗中寻找舞台上的演员时，一束灯光打在观众席的一位女生身上，另一束打在手持气球和话筒，正在喘气的男演员身上。一段有着编号的爱情自白伴随着紧张的喘气声，真挚地从男演员嘴里说出，仿佛观众席上的女生就是自白里的女主角。

哔一声，一个故事终止，另一个编号故事开始。当我们都以为这是一出浪漫爱情故事自白时，背景音乐渐渐变得沉重，另一个女演员念着："I could't leave my boyfriend until he was hit by a car in the valley, then he left me forever and I did not know what to do for my rest life."

我就像他人生活的窥伺者，起初想着只是看着，殊不知看着看着的过程中，我也慢慢慢慢被吸入，连同他们生活的快乐，难过和痛苦。爱可以很大也可以很小，可以是爱情，也可以是亲情。舞台一角，唯一的一束光打在面容沉重的女演员身上，她说: "I will not love any man like I like you my dad. I miss you."

我们都知道感情的世界从来都不存在公平，付出与收获从来都不是平等的。那些40%痛心的故事里，有愤怒，仇恨和诅咒，毫不掩饰，一字一句在舞台上呈现。听到的当下，觉得太唐突，但这就是残酷的事实，你，我和故事的主人都做不到用平静的心去接受一切的爱情的伤害。或许大声说出"I hate you"是一种对过去最好的再见。

我以为70分钟很长，而在我等着下一个故事的时候，表演已经结束。带着感动，思考，成长与所有人一起持续鼓掌，感谢他们把这些故事带给我们，感谢800多位爱情自白者与我们分享他们生命中的故事。

我愿意与你分享下面这20条最佳爱的自白，有思考，有不舍，有难过，有心痛，如你我在感情路上所遭遇的一切心情感受。

I'm in love with both of them, I feel like they both love me back, and I'm pretty sure they love each other. – Submission #331

You steal the blankets. But I somehow don't mind. – Submission #285

I found him eating a peanut butter sandwich with spam on the top, and I knew he was the one. – Submission #104

It's funny how we crave love, until we hate it. – Submission #101

It's been years, but I still think of you and wonder "what could have been". – Submission #087

I was always in love with my childhood friend, and my girlfriend of six years found out before me.--Submission #145

I love the gentle scratch of a beard below the belt. – Submission #052

I'd rather spill my coffee on myself than write about you, because that would burn less. - Submission #080

Love for me is about nothing but us. – Submission #042

Being slutty is passion, it's love. – Submission #025

Why should I share you? Why don’t you get rid of someone else for a change? –Submission #044

I didn't just fall in love. I fell and shattered. – Submission #058

I fell in love with a teacher once in high school. I would google his license plate to see what information I would get. - Submission #014

I drank about 700 bottles of wine to handle the rejection. – Submission #001

What made you think I wouldn’t break? I did. – Submission #328

I love my girlfriend but I wanna fuck other girls. Sexier girls, and never see them again. Is that okay? – Submission #405

When the cancer took her, it took the best of me as well.– Submission #302

I thought he was the cutest boy in the world. But as it turns out he became the ugliest boy I have ever met. – Submission #406

I was trying to find myself and on the way I found Peter, Dan, Jed, Laurence, Dylan, Joseph, Michael and that European guy I seduced online. He came too quickly. I said it was okay (it wasn’t). – Submission #299

I still love her more than anyone. I tried to talk to other girls. One of them called me lovely and I couldn’t handle it. – Submission #012