Actually, I'm quite nervous, since I'm not confident to write something in English, but it's essential for me to get out of my comfort zone, I have to push even force myself to improve quickly, because my precious time has been wasted for nearly three years. I have to make a change, it's just like a crossroad in my life.
The purpose of writing down my experience is to spread something upright and warm, I guess things that is happening to me can be others' comfort to some degree. Besides, it is also a inner healing for me.
Pros:
My life must be ruined, that must be others's opinions, and they do show me their sympathy(some of my relatives who know my family's thing). I don't need their sympathy, I can still, no, even be a better me. I'm unbreakable because of the support of God.
I can not rely on my dad, because he hurt me without hesitation, for example, he persuaded me to agree with parents's divorce, he told me that it was good and happiness to live without an entire family. More than that, he showed me many examples that those children can lead a better life after their parents's divorce. You must laugh if I tell you that he played tons of tricks on me and my mom in order to divorce. For instance, my mom was told that they could pretend to divorce so that the third party could be happy because of her change of identity. It was so ridiculous.
No I know, I have to be independent as soon as possible and it is my turn to take care of my mother, figure out methods of making a living, thinking about my future. One more to mention, nobody is reliable including your parents. The only person you could believe is yourself, and the God behind, that is my rock. I’m forced to grow, because I feel that I haven't experienced youth.
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