2019.3.16 己亥二月初十 周六

      The difficulty we have in accepting responsibility for our behavior lies in the desire to avoid the pain of the consequences of that behavior.By requesting Mac Badgely to assume responsibility for the structure of my time I was attempting to avoid the pain of working long hours,even though working long hours was an inevitable consequence of my choice to be dedicated to my patients and my training.Yet in so doing I was also unwittingly seeking to increase Mac's authority over me.I was giving him my power,my freedom.I was saying in effect,"Take charge of me.You be the boss!"Whenever we seek to avoid the responsibility for our own behavior,we do so by attempting to give that reponsibility to some other individual or organization or entity.But this means we then give away our power to that entity,be it "fate" or "society" or the government or the corporation or our boss.It is for this reason that Erich Fromm so aptly titled his study of Nazism and authoritarianism Escape from Freedom.In attempting to avoid the pain of responsibility,millons and even billions dily attempt to escape from freedom.

      我们接受我们行为带来的责任的困难之处在于我们渴望避免那个行为的结果带来的痛苦。要求麦克－百吉利为安排我的时间承担责任我就是试图逃避长时间工作带来的痛苦，即使长时间工作是我奉献给我的病人和我的培训的不可避免的结果。 但是这样做无意去把麦克的学术权威提高在我之上。我在给他我的才能，我的自由。实际上我在说：“管好我，你才是老板！”无论何时我们试图逃避对我们的行为负责，我们就会把那个责任推给其它个人或组织或其它实体。但这意味着我们失去对那个实体的操纵力，而是由命运或社会或政府或公司或老板取而代之。正是由于这个原因，艾里克－弗罗姆十分贴切地把他的论文的题目命名为“纳粹主义、独裁主义－逃避自由”。试图逃避责任带来的痛苦，成千上万的人日复一日地逃避自由。