Collapse

Happiness is all about your attitude, your response towards life's ups and downs, the frame of mind that makes you to detach a little bit in great success and not to lose hope in repeated failure, and the ability to always see things from its positive side.

Born as a pessimistic, I have a long way to go. All I can promise myself is that I am working on it and I will definitely continue to try.

Year 2018, for me, had a rather tough landing. As if I accidently opened a mysterious door to the misfortune, one trouble after another just keeps popping up. First, my job didn’t go well, our investment went awry, then my son failed in an important examination, and after that my husband went to the hospital because of slip disc. 

I’ve always had troubles in sleeping. Under pressures, it goes even worse: two or three hours per night at most. Every day, I had to fight with every minute, between the hospital, the school, the company, and home. And Lack of sleeps made me depressed and raspy. I saw no hope, no ending, just day after day like that.

Until the day before yesterday, I collapsed. My head hurt so much that I was afraid that it would explode in the very next minute.

All I could manage is to make it to bed, and then just threw everything else away and fell into a total blankness.

Dinner was not ready, the room was a complete mess, the guest was on the way, my son didn’t do his homework, my sick husband had no one to count on. So…What?

I am just a human being. I didn’t feel well. My body’s self-protection system made the decision for me and forced me to shut down.

I felt much better the next morning. The world went on well without me. My collapse scared my husband and son to behave themselves. My husband, the most difficult patient, finally stopped acting like a baby and be a man. My son did his homework without my nagging. There was takeout service, so no body got hungry.

Sometimes all you need is to cut yourself some slack. There’s always a solution to every problem. So just take a deep breath and deal with it.