2021那些回不去不愿回去的
安静的午后，不时驶过车鸣，在秋风相伴的季节里，是谁提起一把吉他，弹唱着关于平凡的一切，醉人心神。
听出了那些在岁月的平庸里，抒写着那些关于谁的爱恨情仇与昨日旧梦，想伸出我的手摘下温柔的星星给谁，在黄昏的温暖中陪伴在谁的身旁，迷醉的每个夜晚同谁一起度过，但我也不曾拥有过谁，只是想在这季节的赞歌里寻找回自己。
昨天的黄昏没有伴着杯金黄的酒与欢声，只因宴会早已经在闹剧里潦草散场了，而宾客醉倒于客乡的怀抱里，一切都变的安静而怡人，看着日落腮红的脸霞和疲倦的身影，在晚风的安抚里，我同黄昏入睡，在梦里一起数着星星点点。
岁月的日子里日复一日，一切照旧日升日落，却已经很久未能遇见一场绝美的夕阳了，也无法在无意抬头时看到烟火绽放了，在落日时不是多云就是雨季，烟火隐匿于星河背后，同美好一起淹没在夜色深处里，像我的心情一样，虽说没有什么变故，但是也没能拥抱美好，平平淡淡的变得麻木不仁。
我似乎在某一刻失去了对于情感的一切，品不出喜怒哀乐与悲欢离合的感觉了，无论遇事如何，不悲不喜，不慌不忙，不会害怕，早已对事物失去恐惧，不会欢喜，不经意间对事物失去热情与期待了，逐渐的沦落到平庸里，如机械的运转周期一般，该停或该走，都已经规划在每日的行程里了，到时便行，到时即停，分毫不差，失去了未知与期待的美好，从而精神涣散疯狂的想找到能够寄托的一切。
平淡源自于对生活的失望透顶，失望多了也就不会拥有着对于一切的希望与盼望，面对所有的事物，无需过多的猜想和预期，结局只有两种要么是坏的，要么是更坏的，这就是事实与现实最原本的模样，所以也没有那份尽心尽力的动力了，所能够做到的也就是没有目的的无谓前行，不记后果，不谈得失，因为早已一败涂地了。
沧海茫茫，人事纠纷，航行的巨轮不知何时触礁而亡，远行的人不知何日埋于土下三尺，这是未知与恐惧，而我已知是是非非最终只归尘埃，看清即看轻，看透未知即失去恐惧，变的无谓，就像幻想的感情里，没有得到何来失去，既无失去哪来的情伤往事呢？
可无论如何，生活还是要远走的，我们该尽心尽力做的还是要去做的，知道结局了，但也要华丽的失败，不要狼狈不堪，要让世界折服于你，如果没有惊喜与意外，那就自己去找寻惊喜与意外，与他撞一个满怀，撞出一个灿烂的烟火，绽放给世人看，哪怕短暂，但会记忆久远，没有樱花树下的相遇，那为何不着手去栽下一棵樱花树，与她来一次拥抱的热情。
不要去期待生活会给你带来什么，其实生活带来给你的，也是你付出与栽培以后，所可以得到的，没有人看见的所有，生活都已经看见了，惊喜与意外都不过是一场提前预谋的计划，一切都需要准备好才能出发，生活亦如如此。
但有时，生活不能事事如愿，如果遇见什么失望的事情，不要灰心丧气，想个法子，下定决心，挣回这一口气，哪怕输，也要让对手日后，惧你三分。
渐渐的或许生活就不会平淡或失望了。
写给平淡里的你，写给黄昏日下安睡的孩子，写给失意的人们，愿吉他不要唱失人生美好，愿化作夜间里短暂烟火绽放给你，在星河岁月里守护你的美好——莫莫
2021.那些苦苦挣扎的岁月，带着些许温情，待到你的到来再往后的所有的日子里。
像酒一样深沉
Quiet afternoon, from time to time through the car, in the autumn accompanied by the wind season, who picked up a guitar, playing and singing about all the ordinary, intoxicant.
Listen to those in the days of mediocrity, express the love/hate about who and yesterday again, want to stretch out my hand and took his gentle stars who, in the warm evening accompany beside who, drunk every night with who together, but I didn't have anybody, just want to find back their praises in the season.
Yesterday evening without with golden yellow wine and laughter, because the party had scrawled break up in the drama, and guests drunk in guest township arms, everything becomes quiet and pleasant, watching the sunset cheek is red the face of chardonnay and tired, in the night breeze strokes, evening sleep, in dreams together counting the stars.
Time of day, day after day, business as usual - sunset, but I have long failed to meet a beautiful sunset, also can't when inadvertently looked up and saw the fireworks bloomed, in the cloudy or rainy season, when the sunset behind the fireworks are hidden in the Milky Way, drowned in the depths of the night, with beautiful, like my mood, although there is no change, but also failed to embrace beauty, became hardened flatly light.
I seem to be lost for all emotions at one point, not the joys and sorrows and sensitized feeling, no matter how he, not sad not pleased, no hurry, not afraid, fear of losing things already, don't rejoice, inadvertently lost enthusiasm and expectation for things, gradually reduced to mediocrity, such as mechanical cycle, the stop or go, already planning in the daily schedule, then go, then stop, perfectness, lost the unknown and looking forward to the good, thereby distracted crazy want to find can entrust everything.
Is derived from the disappointment of life, more disappointed all also won't have to hope and look forward to, in the face of all things, without too much conjecture and expectations, only two are either bad ending, or worse, this is the truth and reality is the most original appearance, so also does not have the power, to the best of what can do is meaningless without a purpose, not to remember, don't talk about gain and loss, because already defeated.
Sailing the sea boundless, the personnel dispute, and knows when the ship is on the rock, three feet into the travel of the people do not know which day buried in soil, this is the unknown and fear, and I am the right and wrong are known only to dust, see looked down, see through the unknown that fear lost, become meaningless, just like the feelings of the fantasy, don't get no lost, where neither lose feeling hurt the past?
But anyway, life still have to go, we should to do or want to do, know the ending, but also should fail, don't be flustered, want to let the world to you, if there is no surprise and accident, then to find surprise and accident, and he hit a full, hit out a brilliant fireworks, bloom to the world, even if is short, but long memory, not meet here, why not set out to plant a tree, and her enthusiasm for a hug.
In fact, what life brings to you is also what you can get after you pay and cultivate. Life has seen all that no one has seen. Surprises and accidents are just a premeditated plan ahead.
But sometimes, life can not always as you want, if you meet something disappointing, don't be discouraged, find a way, make up your mind, earn back this breath, even if you lose, but also let the opponent later, fear you three points.
Gradually perhaps life will not be flat or disappointed.
Write to the plain in you, write to the children sleeping under the sun at dusk, write to the frustrated people, may the guitar do not sing lost life beautiful, may be a short fireworks burst to you at night, in the years of the stars to protect your good - Mo mo
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