C先生说《三块广告牌》不错,遂点开来看,许是每次都在我的困点才看,所以看着看着就睡着了,今晚已经是第三次继续观看,但我想应该还有第四次。
51分钟的时候,迎来了我原以为是男主角的结局,这个女主人公认为需要为她女儿的案子负责的警察局长威洛比,他选择在生命最后用枪对准自己的头,结束了生命。而我也看到了他的三封信中的第一封留给妻子安妮的信。
My darling Anne,
There’s a longer letter in the dresser drawer I’ve been writing for the last week or so. That one covers us and my memories of us, and how much I’ve always loved you. This one just covers tonight, and more importantly today. Tonight I have gone out to the horses to end it. I can not say sorry for the act itself although I know for a short time you will be angry at me or even hate me for it.
Please don’t, this is not a case of “ I came in this world alone and I’m going out of it alone” or anything dumb like that. I did not come in this world alone, my mom was there. And I’m not going out of it alone cos you are there, drunk on the couch, making Oscar Wilde cock jokes.
No, this is a case in some senses of bravery, not the bravery of facing the bullet down, the next few months of pain would be far harder than that small flash. No, it’s the bravery of weighing up the next few months of still being with you, still waking up with you, of playing with the kids against the next few months seeing in your eyes how much my pain is killing you,how my weakened body as it ebbs away and you tend to it are your final and lasting memories of me. I won’t have that.
Your final memories of me will be us at the riverside and that dumb fishing game which I think they cheated at. And me inside of you, you on top of me, and barely a fleeting thought of the darkness yet to come. That was the best Anne,a whole day of not thinking about it. Dwell on this day, baby, cos it was the best of my life. Kiss the girls for me, and know that I’ve always loved you. And maybe I’ll see you again if there’s another place. And if there ain’t, well, it’s been Heaven knowing you。
Your boy
Bill
但是最让人感触的是他自杀时套在头上的袋子,写着:Don't open the bag Just telephone the police.
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