Pepper❤️
We renamed you to Xiaohei (little black) when you came to our house at the end of November 2019. Xiaohei is a” cheap” name; in our culture, the cheap name brings long life. However, it is not the case on you. A car took your life, and it was just a few days after you turned 6 months. It was the strange thunderbolt/ snowy day in Uppsala. The wind was blowing like it would take everything away. You and your sister had a big sleep in the afternoon.
You sleep like there is nothing to fear. You stretch your entire body and keep your belly part open. I would hope that this sweet moment would have last forever. But it did not.
You woke up had no food. You wanted to go out to your big adventure in the snow. That is you. Nothing can stop you from taking experience. You are the smallest cat within your siblings, but you are for sure the bravest. Wherever you go together with your sister, you are always the one that takes the initiative and discover things. It was enjoyable to see because you are much smaller than your sister, but she follows whatever you do. Now you are gone, your sister stays home most of the time.
Right, that evening. You went out alone, without eating food. I thought you would not go further away because the weather was not pleasant. Who wants to go into that kind of weather. However, that was the last moment I saw you. That was 19:30 ish. You went into the wet yard, shaken your paws, then disappeared. I waited, waited for you until 2 a.m. I did not see your little white nose showing in front of the door. I started to get very worried. I made a warm house for you outside the door and thought it would be terrible if you get freezing in this awful night. I woke up again at 4 and checked our back yard door. God knows how much I wished to see you there, waiting for me to open the door. But the snow was untouched. Untouched!
You were never away for more than 2 hours. You love to come to me and scratch your face to mine. The love you expressed was so intensive. If I had no time for you, you would just press your front paws on something else endless to express your love. You want to come home, I know it! However, I did not realize that you would never be able to since 20:00, 2nd of April.
I put up a message on Facebook. Many people thought that you went on a boyfriend hunting until the evening of 3rd April, a nice woman said that her son observed a car accident on a little, black cat. That was in front of the pizzeria along the big road, Dag Hamm. He said a kind couple took the poor little thing, grabbed in a blanket, and went away.
I went crazy. It was you, I know it! I even understand why you choose to cross the big street at that place, which is about 200 meters away from home. You are such an adorable cat; whenever we took a walk, you would follow like a little dog. I just need to say: ”come on, Xiaohei.” You would follow and never get lost. There were two times Ludde and I went to the park that is on the other side of the road. To avoid the possibility that you understand one can come to the big road, we chosen to cross the road far away from home, which is precisely the place you got hit by the car. The two times we went to the park, you followed us until we were about to cross the road. You did not dare to do that at that time. However, you must observe and figured out that cars stopped for us at that point in the road. Therefore, you crossed the road as you did not see the car at all, as the nice woman who took you to the hospital described. She said it was strange that you just walked out in front of the car. The car did not have a chance to stop; it took your life instantly.
You look like you are sleeping in that little box in the animal hospital. Together with our crying voice, I felt my heart was broken. You would never miao to me anymore with your little mouth entirely open. You would never react to me when I call your name. Zhibin said you have a pair of eyes that can speak. You communicate with the human through that way. You know how to grab our hearts and fall in love with you within a second.
Three months. You were with us just a bit longer than three months. But we would never be able to forget you. I fell you are like my child. I cared if you had enough food ; if your sister took the most and you got less; I cared if you felt left out when we closed the door; I cared if your tooth hurt when you were changing your tooth. But you did not care. All you care were giving love and experiencing life. You never complained about having ”bad” food, even though you had a terribly bleeding mouth, you still eat whatever that was provided. You never complained when I throw you out of our bedroom, although you were always the quiet one. You ever observed when we were about to go to bed. You would wait already in the bathroom for our toothbrushing. When you saw we were about ready, you would climb into your little sleeping box beside our bed and keeping quite. You were the one that always stood in front of the window to see us when you hear the car coming.
I miss you so much. We miss you so much. My mind is occupied with you. You are there in the yard catching butterflies. You are there lying on the sofa shows enjoy. You are there waiting for me to open the door to let you in and opening the month to show your urgent to come in. You are there at the front door waiting for us to come home. You are there to wave your cute tail to show all your happiness. You are there but aren't there.
Our forever Xiaohei. We Love you! Forever!
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