那些回想起来让我心塞的瞬间

THOSE MOMENTS SUFFOCATING ME AT THE THOUGHT OF THEM

那些回想起来让我心塞的瞬间

One may have been through a lot, and those moments bringing feeling of regret instead of anything else sink into the bottom of heart, staying there as a wreck, reminding us that we could have done better to avoid feeling sorry for the past and we could take care of what's ignored to embrace a future less regretful.

I take a look into the things done in a way that suffocates me every time I recall. I see that they may be a violation of my nature, or I wouldn't have felt wrong when I calm down and reflect later on, realizing that it could have ended up in a more considerate way.

Top 7 listed below

1

I laughed at my dog when she's shaking without knowing that she's in pain with quiver.

I found my dog keep shaking even if the indoor temperature was warm enough. I made fun of her claiming that her frequency of shaking seems like that of a massage chair. It looks funny but the reason behind is aching. She got bugs inside her ears keep biting her, and that's the truth of the vibration. I am too careless to see the cause beneath the comical phenomenon and I am sorrowful to find out that I am not an owner detail minded enough.

We may be numbly ignorant about the real need of someone close to us. Back to the case of my dog, I don't even know that she's horribly bothered by bugs even though she's doubling up in paint next to me. It is a pity that will keep me sober, attentive to others' need.

2

I shouted at my ex colleague the day when she's leaving, leaving all the tasks pending and undone to me.

I am likely to be impatient when all things crowd into my schedule all of a sudden. It is not some piece of cake to remain calm the moment you see that your last partner is no longer with you, leaving you alone without support and the tasks pending piling up with an upcoming deadline, with little hope to be accomplished in time. I am sorry that I haven't been friendly enough to my workmate till the last minute. I could have been more tolerant and considerate but the emergency and unexpected situation fail me. I realized that I just lack the softness and firmness within to remain kind to people in the most unendurable moment and calm in the helpless condition.

3

I argued with my production when he missed the order and claimed that he hadn't got such an information from me.

The more busy and hurried I am, the less tolerance I will have to others' mistake. I knew that he might be busy around and ignore a certain order after he finally had the time sitting down for a cup of tea. And I showed up right at this moment, asked him why he missed the info I had informed him of in the morning, no more than 3 hours ago. I should have shown more understanding to the person being as busy as I am, but I let the rage have me. Being regretful for the quarrel occupying the time that could have been spent on solving the issue, I learn the importance of staying open minded about others' mistake. After all, it is understanding instead of blame that could smoothen the process of figuring out the reason and solution.

4

I failed to cover up my anger when my boss declined customer's reasonable request on airfreight of cargo delayed.

We have been delaying shipments for two months and our boss makes no definite guarantee but some uncertain reply, claiming that everything will be all right a month later. I would buy his story no more the 5th time I made the same list as he requested, which I had made clear to the manager who was in charge of the production. I am fed up with his so called discussion with production without feedback and resultless meetings keeping my limited time occupied and the same issue unsolved. I feel hopeless that my boss just turns a blind eye to the urgent need of customer, or he sees the need but he is too shame to ask the production for cargo since his delaying the payment for suppliers is the root cause behind the delay. What I can't agree with is that he deprives the basic right of customer claiming that he is in the dilemma of shortage in funds and materials. He takes the prepayment arranged as a support by customer for granted. He sees that every one should show the understanding of the shipment postponed and not to raise any demand of high cost airfreight to further his burden on debt. I could have shown my poker face instead of wrath the moment he turned down the airfreight, since silent indifference is the best reaction to the speechless situation. I decide to move on to something else and not to waste a single breath on something worth my effort no more.

5

I opened up my drawer after 2018 CNY holidays discovering that all of the things got bitten by mice.

This was the most horrible surprise I had got as a painful lesson, telling me that I got nothing if I don't no how to take good care of things and make full advantage of them. I have made up my mind to establish healthy relationship with the things I own since then, putting them in order and know where to find the certain thing when in want.

6

I showed my indifference to my new colleague on his first day to Suprema.

I am too busy settling my own tasks to take the limited minutes from a tight schedule to guide the new guy of what to do the first day when he was sitting at the desk next to mine. He didn't speak a lot, but watched what I was doing in silence and then waited for the appropriate minute to ask me something concerned. His sincere and considerate manner impressed me a lot, and I started to soften my attitude to him and slow done the pace to make it easy for him to catch up with. I was in the same situation three years ago, wondering why the old staff in the same department could be so indifferent and busy around without noting my existence. And I told myself that I wouldn't become someone numb and nonchalant like this when I am an old employee. I would take the initiative to provide friendly guidance to the new comer. Then I know the reason why my former colleague show no warmth to me when I joined the department for the first day. One can be busy, be in a hurried, be with a tight schedule, but never let it rob you of the nature you have once been cherished so much.

7

I hated myself for not meticulous enough to spot the detail missing in the new packing material.

I give the sample to the purchasing agent, asking him to acquire the the same item for replacement. However, there was some mistake in the size. And he claimed that it will be better if I have shown him the whole set of product instead of the single part I want him to purchase, so he would have noticed the detail he ignored. We will talk about how to make things better when we spot a mistake, but it is our attitude toward it instead the mistake itself that becomes a lesson to us. Stay sharp so we can be detail minded since we make most of the mistake when we are numb with exhaustion. Every time I have left out some of the details important, I would ask myself what prevents me from getting all the details necessary covered. And take rest and refreshment in time to guarantee a positively efficient working condition.