Singing Snowberg
Chapter Five
Arioso <6>
Chros©
The illusion is torn apart again, I can see Uyuni behind.
“How about the trip to China?” “I also went back to La Plata.” “That’s in my plan. How do you feel?” I don’t want to talk about it, felt like years has passed. “Suppose you have forgotten some of them on your way back? Do you still remember how Aliciasa left?” No, not at all, had I been taken to see that part? “It’s okay to forget. Let’s take a walk.”
We walked around the lake, soon the moor was left behind. We’re walking on a white plain, more likely a dried lake bed. Uyuni doesn’t always have lakes. “Do you play Gobang?” “Yes.” “Who taught you?” Who taught me? This is a hard question. It could be Rosa.
I’m feeling Lazy scratching my face, what time is it? Three o’clock, he must be hungry. I’m feeling better now, let’s go to the canteen room. One two three up, not good. I’m trapped in this body. I don’t want to get back into the dreams, and my body will get used to laziness.
One of these failed attempts I fell to the ground, muscles aching. “Lazy, call for help.” But no he’s just a cat. So I shouted some, in vain. It’s cold on the floor, I need get under the sunlight otherwise I’ll freeze into a block of ice. And another trouble comes, I need a pee. I crawl on and on, inch by inch, must looked funny but it’s about life and death. Finally at the bathroom door, a great idea pops up, I could take a bath. I don’t know how I managed getting into the tub, hot water come come come, my fingers are trembling uncontrollably. I have to pee in the tub and it’s not about the embarrassment. When the hot water streaming out from the tap I realised I’m saved. If the water system malfunction again this time I would be frozen into the dormant state.
“Lazy.” He jumps into view within one second. “Come bathing with me?” He dips his claw into the water and sits back by my feet. “No? Okay.” And I’ll enjoy the healing power of hot water. They say there’re hot springs in Southpole, maybe the water is from there. Minutes later I feel better and better, my limbs are now working well, and how about this one between my legs? Not working no good, I want to cry. “Lazy, don’t look.” I knew you could, harder, harder. Where are you Salix, this loneliness is killing me. I turn on the tap, dip my whole body into the water. I’m recovering, soon I’ll be able to take Lazy out.
My head was taken out of the water suddenly, it happened so fast that I was choked some water inside my pipe. “What the hell are you doing? Cyano!” His tears streaming out like fountains. “I’m bathing, that’s all!” Stupid Salix, stupid. And my body is out of control again, I can’t stand on my own.
“How did you get in here? Why bruises on your arms?” I have to tell him everything had happened to make him believe. “I thought I was about to lose you.” “Don’t talk silly Salix, I feel better now.”
Back on the bed, he stares at me intently, still thinking about something. We need more communication, but he wouldn’t let me do anything, even my mouth is shut by his fingers. “Let me talk, let me speak... I’m about to go back to Ushuaia for two months.” “But you said you don’t have a family, and... and the Olympics is coming, don’t you want to watch the game?” “You come back with me? Maybe we won’t have to go back here.” “I... I have unpaid bills, the player. I can’t get out before it’s cleared.” “Oh....” “Why do you need to get back?” He swallows, “I got the letter, he’s coming to Southpole as a volunteer. I couldn’t face him.” “You and him are over, it’s the past. You won’t see him.” “I couldn’t face him, even knowing we’re at the same space is driving me crazy.”
He takes out the letter from him, I know he can’t get out of their past, a curse. I have to support him, or else he’s alone.
He will get back to Argentina on the 7th of May, There’re 31 days to go.
“You gave him your address, do you know where he lives?” “He’s at the old place, Susques, a village near the Atacama desert. Do you know?” “Atacama yes, Susques no.” “Are you planning to get back there?” Salix shakes his head, is it a “no” or “no idea”?
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