Singing Snowberg
Chapter Three
Hide-and-seek <7>
Chros©
After a little break we set foot again, two stations to go. The sky finally wakes up and reveals its beautiful golden and grey. I think there’re no more reveries for me, because I don’t recall bad things this time. The only things I could think of right now is right now, Salix is with me, we’re in love. If I have to recall, that’s the winter back at home with clear sky and great sunshine, sometimes there’s rain, we stayed in and looked outside, think of nothing. I don’t think much this moment because it’s so great in my life to think of anything else. We’re walking and witnessing the accumulating clouds above the mountains changing their shape in tranquility, and think of nothingness.
“Look! That arc door. That’s the frost forest.” I cry out in ecstasy. I’m not very sure why am I this happy, perhaps I’m excited for him since this is his first time here. And I wonder if Devo had been as happy as me, but I bet he wasn’t, he didn’t even smile. But look at Salix, can’t say I expect him to be excited, but HE IS! he is excited to be here!
Now it’s 11 o’clock, this station is cold, we’re putting on some clothes, ready to go outside.
“I’m starving, let’s eat something.” We shared a big sandwich and a vacuum bottle of coffee on the empty corridor floor. And the only guard in this station offered us some hot water and refilled our bottle. He is warm-hearted and talkative, we even got two bars of low-cacao chocolate from him.
“Cyano... are you sweating?” “Yes I’m sweating. Sweat is a trouble in cold weather. Shall I wait here and you explore by yourself?” “I’m going.” “I was joking, Salix. How could I abandon you?”
The weather is perfect for today’s hiking, walk through the arc door here’s the forest itself. These tall trees stand still, waiting for their guests, they can’t move, but I guess they want it. “Which path you took the last time?” “Left.” “We take right.”
There’re stone steps leading downwards, we have to be careful walking on the slippery surface even we’re wearing anti-slippery shoes. At the end of the hill there’s a little lake. “Hum... the water is warm, but not so warm.” “There’s a hot spring down here, I suppose.” We discovered several little fish in the water, they’re bluenised. Salix knew nothing about this phenomenon, he couldn’t believe such thing exists. But it’s okay, because he believes that blue deer. He’s a strange man, I start to think, so much like me, wouldn’t believe the true things before his eyes, yet believe in an animal that’s probably a fantasised creature. He’s not a mystery to me even yet I know little about him, the characters I found and going to find out about him are something natural and should-be. I love him much for this.
We have to go uphill to reach the opposite side, the steps are ice-closed, “we should turn back, it’s dangerous.” We returned to the first fork. This time I take the lead, I remember the “walk and see”, the snow drops when I flicked them from the handrails. Just like yesterday.
“Salix, where’re you from? Salix?” But he’s nowhere to be found. This is where the horror starts to grow. I was in this situation, last time with Devo, how I lost those memories in between and this time again? I already feel something on my spine, little untouchable caterpillar is crawling behind on my skin. That space and time that universe are pouring back at me, my thoughts jump in pain, the deepest pain is filling my lungs again, I’m drowning and drowning... that blue deer! She’s walking just like the last time, that same route, into the depth of forest. I’m trying to find a difference because this is not a recalling dream. The reality reality she’s true she exists I’m sober as hell, but the only difference is that I’m crying this time, I can control my body, I need to run away out of here, but you can’t run away from a dream, you’re a character in a movie, you see the beauty but you don’t know what it means.
I’m walking and walking, don’t know when she disappeared, a giant blue lake is shielded behind that last layer of trees. Till I walk around the last tree I see the stone shore, encircling this pool of lovely blue, and above the blue there’s a snowberg.
“Beautiful, hum?” Salix is speaking. I couldn’t speak because I think he’s just an illusion, you’re not real, even myself isn’t real. Look at that mad snowberg, that thing so marvellous couldn’t exist in this universe! He’s mad, I’m mad too because all these are total fantasies composed randomly in a head don’t know where it comes from.
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