旅行时的问题

【美】艾达·利蒙    陈子弘   译

每一次我在机场，
都在想我该彻彻底底
颠覆我的生活：弄死小儿科，
开始跳个舞，混乱中去
放把火然后躲过雷达
匍匐前行，像条逃跑的狗
沿警戒线偷偷摸摸跑掉。
我会被编织得美轮美奂，
物超所值，相信上帝
相信可以用祈祷和财产
来化解我的种种难题。
然后，我想你，想家里
和狗狗，还有满屏的那些
紫色弹窗广告——我们
都渺小也有缺陷，但我
还是想要自己的样子，去
自己要去的地方，再来一遍。

THE PROBLEM WITH TRAVEL

BY ADA LIMÓN

Every time I’m in an airport,
I think I should drastically
change my life: Kill the kid stuff,
start to act my numbers, set fire
to the clutter and creep below
the radar like an escaped canine
sneaking along the fence line.
I’d be cable-knitted to the hilt,
beautiful beyond buying, believe in
the maker and fix my problems
with prayer and property.
Then, I think of you, home
with the dog, the field full
of purple pop-ups—we’re small and
flawed, but I want to be
who I am, going where
I’m going, all over again.